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Raised By Borderlines: For the children of parents with Borderline Personality Disorder

2014.09.03 07:32 Raised By Borderlines: For the children of parents with Borderline Personality Disorder

A survivor sub exclusively for children raised by a toxic parent or guardian with borderline personality disordeemotionally unstable personality disorder. This is a constructive, supportive space to find healing from your abusive parent and dysfunctional home. PLEASE READ THE RULES before you participate. We take sub members' safety very seriously.
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2014.09.18 19:51 no more walking on eggshells

Support group for people raised by a parent or parents with Borderline Personality Disorder. Once you understand your parent is BPD, there is no going back.
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2023.06.10 17:13 throwaway20948583919 regret/vent

Hi everyone, I posted in this subreddit maybe a month or two ago that my boyfriend and I had broken up and I just wanna say that I should’ve taken the advice of everyone who commented on my post and the advice of everyone in the community in general. My ex is so hot and cold with me. One week he will text and call me all the time and the next he will hardly message me at all. It makes me feel terrible because he’ll be talking about our future together and having kids and being married and then go extremely dry on me the following week. I saw him to hang out and my feelings weren’t as strong for him but now it feels like when the breakup happened and now I’m mourning everything that’s never going to happen AGAIN. I’m just so sick of the constant ache in my chest and I don’t want to feel like this anymore
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2023.06.10 17:13 ldl84 I feel like i’m gonna be the crazy cat lady

I’m 39. I’ve been divorced twice. My first marriage I got married at 17 & divorced at 28 due to DV. (I have 3 beautiful children & 3 grandchild now) My 2nd marriage is in the process of dissolving. It’s not even been 5 years but we were together for 10 years. Yes I met him not long after my first divorce was final. I got cancer in 2020 & since then my health has went downhill. I have chronic blood clots randomly around my body, most recent were in my brain. no known cause, I also have daily seizures and feeding tubes. The soon to be ex decided he didn’t want a sick wife & he’s been trying to leave since my cancer diagnosis but he didn’t want to look like the bad guy.
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2023.06.10 17:12 LoveMangaBuddy Read Between Two Lips - Chapter 112 - MangaPuma

The brave princess attacks the sexy king? The princess marries off to a royal family from a far-away country, and then notices that her fiancé is a savage pervert?! Not only does she have to resist against the ruthless prince, but also has to hide from an evil assassination! Meanwhile, the king shows off his compassionate side to the princess… ... Read Between Two Lips - Chapter 112 - MangaPuma. Read more at https://mangapuma.com/between-two-lips/chapter-112
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2023.06.10 17:11 OkCourse5238 Bob Dylan is a conspiracy theorist

This is pulled from a usually boring ER forum.
This is from the 2009 interview with Bill Flanagan. There's nothing direct but he is using the same techniques he employs in The Philopshy Of Modern Song and much of Rough and Rowdy Ways to create an idea using lots of references in what I consider a Thomas Pynchon style.
"He’s like a fictional character, but he’s real. First off, his mother was a Kansas girl. Never lived in Kansas though, but with deep roots. You know, like Kansas bloody Kansas. John Brown the insurrectionist. Jesse James and Quantrill. Bushwhackers, Guerillas. Wizard of Oz Kansas. I think Barack has Jefferson Davis back there in his ancestry someplace. And then his father. An African intellectual. Bantu, Masai, Griot type heritage – cattle raiders, lion killers. I mean it’s just so incongruous that these two people would meet and fall in love. You kind of get past that though. And then you’re into his story. Like an odyssey except in reverse."
If you know that Obama's mother was working for USAID in Indonesia during the period where the CIA directed the government's killing of over 1 million communists and suspected sympathisers, that USAID is a CIA front and that Obama's mother married an oil minister in the genocidal government then the seemingly bizarre references begin to make sense.
I believe Dylan's is writing cryptically linking the history of Kansas to that of Indonesia. That John Brown references Sukarno the deposed and killed Indonesian leftist leader. Jesse Jame and Quantrill. Bushwackers are comparable to the death squads of the Indonesian army who carried out the mass killings under the orders the CIA. If you follow this logic the linking of Obama's family lineage to Jefferson Davis makes perfect sense.
I mean it’s just so incongruous that these two people would meet and fall in love
I presume that Dylan knows that their meeting wasn't incongruous at all. Ann Dunham was studying Russian at the University of Hawaii and Barack Obama snr was brought to UoH from Kenya by the State Dept to be groomed as a young leader who would serve American interests. It's also pretty clear that they were not in love. Obama snr was a bigamist, Dunham left Hawaii with baby Obama when he was 1 month old and the two appear never to have met again.
Dylan made these comments in 2009 but there cohere very well with this 2012 book which lays out the links of Obama and his family to the CIA. https://www.amazon.co.uk/Manufacturing- ... rack-Obama
He’s like a fictional character, but he’s real
Straight out of college Obama worked for CIA front organisation Business International Corporation. His entire adult life appears to have been guided by intelligence and his rise through Illinois was facilitated by the billionaire Pritzker family whom he repaid by making Jenny Pritzker secretary of commerce. The Pritzker's were involved with the CIA's money laundering operations through Castle Bank of Bahamas in the 70s and 80s.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Castle_Ba ... _(Bahamas)
The issue here however isn't whether or not Obama has these inter generational links to the CIA but whether Bob Dylan would be interested in this information and making insinuations based off it. Given that in the past few years he has written a song incorporating the idea that JFK was killed by a masonic conspiracy, published a book that hints at John Lennon being murdered by the state, the moon landings being fake and LBJ and Nixon stealing gold reserves and put a painting on display that hints that Edie Sedgwick was a victim of hypnotism then i'd say it's exactly in his wheelhouse.
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2023.06.10 17:11 millenialwithgerd Everybody is happy she is retiring.

My previous boss from a government office is retiring by the end of June. Everyone in the office is happy about it but for a different reason.
Dito ko lang to sasabihin pero she is incompetent sa position niya. Yung mga kasabayan niya would say na ok naman siya before, di naman siya ganyan when they were still young. She micromanages everything to the point nakakalimutan na niyang siya nagpagawa non.
There's too many stuff about it but the gist is that kelangan may bitbit siyang Chiefs (plural) during meetings kasi di niya alam anong isasagot/how to handle meetings - ayaw naman niyang sumali sa dialogues. And when these chiefs get recognized siya pa maiiinis kahit di naman siya kumukuha ng responsibilidad. In short, taga gunting lang siya ng ribbon sa mga launching.
The last straw was when she hired her lover (she's married). All hell broke loose sa office kulang nalang sa ireport siya sa CSC. Good thing wala na ako by that time.
Sabi ng mga friends ko dun na she wanted to have a celebration during her last day same ng ibang nag retire. Kaso walang gustong mag organize maliban sa HR na napipilitan and yung papalit sa kanya. Some are planning to take leaves during that day. They just want her out of the picture na. What a sad fate for her.
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2023.06.10 17:11 millenialwithgerd Everybody is happy she is retiring.

My previous boss from a government office is retiring by the end of June. Everyone in the office is happy about it but for a different reason.
Dito ko lang to sasabihin pero she is incompetent sa position niya. Yung mga kasabayan niya would say na ok naman siya before, di naman siya ganyan when they were still young. She micromanages everything to the point nakakalimutan na niyang siya nagpagawa non.
There's too many stuff about it but the gist is that kelangan may bitbit siyang Chiefs (plural) during meetings kasi di niya alam anong isasagot/how to handle meetings - ayaw naman niyang sumali sa dialogues. And when these chiefs get recognized siya pa maiiinis kahit di naman siya kumukuha ng responsibilidad. In short, taga gunting lang siya ng ribbon sa mga launching.
The last straw was when she hired her lover (she's married). All hell broke loose sa office kulang nalang sa ireport siya sa CSC. Good thing wala na ako by that time.
Sabi ng mga friends ko dun na she wanted to have a celebration during her last day same ng ibang nag retire. Kaso walang gustong mag organize maliban sa HR na napipilitan and yung papalit sa kanya. Some are planning to take leaves during that day. They just want her out of the picture na. What a sad fate for her.
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2023.06.10 17:08 Ornery_Stable_3580 I (33F) don’t think I’m in love with my husband (32M) anymore.

Sorry bit of a long read. Bit of a back story we have been together for 7 years and married for 3 and we have a 2 year old and 3 month old.
I’ll preface this by saying I’m not the best communicator however after getting married and trying to voice my concerns or feelings and being told to move on, get over it or him sulking (I know huge red flag but we have discussed his reaction and he says he’ll try to do better etc) I’ve lost all confidence and just hold resentment. None of this was as much of a problem pre marriage/children.
Wanting children was something I was very clear about from early on in our relationship and while I thought he felt the same I think he was just trying to keep me happy. I think he secretly hoped we wouldn’t be able to have children first was planned second was a surprise. I do all night wakes and 90% of the parenting on top of working (currently on maternity leave but will be returning soon) and most housework/cooking he will clean maybe once a fortnight but has a knack of making me feel like it’s because I don’t do a good enough job. He does work hard to provide for us but I’m also contributing financially so I don’t think everything else shouldn’t fall on me. He’s generally more interested in his phone when he is home and has mad repeated ‘joke’ comments to friends about “kids, who’d have them” etc I know they’re hard and he loves our kids but I think if he could go back he wouldn’t have them I don’t know if I can get past that.
I recently went and spend the night at my mothers with the kids he told me that he’d missed us when we were gone but I didn’t really feel the same.
I’m not completely ready to chuck in towel I do love him I just don’t think I’m in love with anymore. How do I communicate better? Can this relationship be saved?
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2023.06.10 17:07 Green_madam 34 [F4M] #Ukraine search for husband

This text is only for single man without kids, who searchs for wife. You can be Christian (practicing or not) or atheist.
Important, CHAT DOESN'T WORK CORRECTLY. I can't see and reply to chat requests, can't fix it. Text to letter section. How to do that? Open my profile > More options > Send message. Not chat but message.
I'm a single female from Ukraine (can meet with you in another country, more safe for you). I search for a single childless man older than 35 (older- better) for a serious relationship, first without physical aspects. Your age and appearance are not important. I wish you are self-employed, your own master and boss or digital nomad who is not bended strongly with certain place of living or office shedual but that is not a strict demand.
Sometimes men expect physical aspects very fast and leave fast if not get it soon. In my opinion, this means the first interest was not in the relationship itself but in these aspects. That's why I want to find a relationship first without it. So I can be sure that a man stays near me because he really likes me, not for physical satisfaction itself. That means not only one sphere of relationship. People divide into 2 groups. Those who give more than take and opposite. Wishing to gain satisfaction fast leads to frustration and disappointment.
I have got few marriage offers in the past, but felt that they were not serious because the men were too young, not well settled and made these offers trying to gain something. Being not a young girl, I still wait for a right person—a man who will be happy staying with me and will do everything for me by his own wish. Sounds too vanilla? Yes, I am a dreamer.
If things work, I can relocate to you or to invite you to live in Ukraine after the war ends. If you are able to set up app called telegram for chat and meet in real life before autumn, then please text me. I prefer well written letter that was sent in inbox letters, not in chat requests.
Now more detaily about me. Never been married, no kids (will not have in the nearest time and probably a childfree), no pets . Was raised in small village at farmer's house (the nature was great but didn't like the hard working lifestyle) and prefer city life. I don't smoke, don't drink alcohol . You will not have to suffer dealing with numerous people around me because I don't have friends (people disappear when interests and lifestyles become different) and my family is very small. I don't visit bars, clubs or parties and not addicted to social networks. As an introvert, I can't open to someone fast because have been cheated by those whom trusted. Life teaches, only real actions show the true person's intentions, not just his words.
About two negative moments. The first is my passivity. I was raised in a culture where it was considered vulgar if a woman is too active in the path of creating a relationship. Yes, it is obvious that active women will get success sooner than passive one but I can't change myself and prefer the one who will take initiative and will be just classic old-fashioned gentleman.
The second negative moment is that being introverted, I totally dislike situation when I have to contact with unknown people, especially with men, especially in field of relationship. That sounds not logical because how can someone know anyone if he/she doesn't like starting this contact? There is only one solution for me. I can start contact only if I have already got very detailed information about person so this makes illusion that he is already not a stranger. Most of men send short message, expecting that I will ask many questions trying to find out his personality. The truth is that I will not do it. Yes, you can call me bad for that, but I will reply only to well written detailed letter from someone who will not make me to ask many questions but will write proper letter with basic information by himself. Man's appearance means nothing for me, but what he says and what is more important, what he does - that's important.
That were negative moments. Obviously, there are much more of them but I'll let you discover size of all iceberg by yourself. Thanks for reading.
P.S. Please, be patient and don't expect fast replies, sometimes it is not easy to do due to many reasons. That one who puts efforts in his first letter will get reply faster.
P.S.S. Chat doesn't work correctly and doesn't show messages and requests there. Text only in letters section.
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2023.06.10 17:05 Green_madam 34 [F4M] Ukraine/Anywhere for husband

This text is only for single man without kids, who searchs for wife. You can be Christian (practicing or not) or atheist.
Important, CHAT DOESN'T WORK CORRECTLY. I can't see and reply to chat requests, can't fix it. Text to letter section. How to do that? Open my profile > More options > Send message. Not chat but message.
I'm a single female from Ukraine (can meet with you in another country, more safe for you). I search for a single childless man older than 35 (older- better) for a serious relationship, first without physical aspects. Your age and appearance are not important. I wish you are self-employed, your own master and boss or digital nomad who is not bended strongly with certain place of living or office shedual but that is not a strict demand.
Sometimes men expect physical aspects very fast and leave fast if not get it soon. In my opinion, this means the first interest was not in the relationship itself but in these aspects. That's why I want to find a relationship first without it. So I can be sure that a man stays near me because he really likes me, not for physical satisfaction itself. That means not only one sphere of relationship. People divide into 2 groups. Those who give more than take and opposite. Wishing to gain satisfaction fast leads to frustration and disappointment.
I have got few marriage offers in the past, but felt that they were not serious because the men were too young, not well settled and made these offers trying to gain something. Being not a young girl, I still wait for a right person—a man who will be happy staying with me and will do everything for me by his own wish. Sounds too vanilla? Yes, I am a dreamer.
If things work, I can relocate to you or to invite you to live in Ukraine after the war ends. If you are able to set up app called telegram for chat and meet in real life before autumn, then please text me. I prefer well written letter that was sent in inbox letters, not in chat requests.
Now more detaily about me. Never been married, no kids (will not have in the nearest time and probably a childfree), no pets . Was raised in small village at farmer's house (the nature was great but didn't like the hard working lifestyle) and prefer city life. I don't smoke, don't drink alcohol . You will not have to suffer dealing with numerous people around me because I don't have friends (people disappear when interests and lifestyles become different) and my family is very small. I don't visit bars, clubs or parties and not addicted to social networks. As an introvert, I can't open to someone fast because have been cheated by those whom trusted. Life teaches, only real actions show the true person's intentions, not just his words.
About two negative moments. The first is my passivity. I was raised in a culture where it was considered vulgar if a woman is too active in the path of creating a relationship. Yes, it is obvious that active women will get success sooner than passive one but I can't change myself and prefer the one who will take initiative and will be just classic old-fashioned gentleman.
The second negative moment is that being introverted, I totally dislike situation when I have to contact with unknown people, especially with men, especially in field of relationship. That sounds not logical because how can someone know anyone if he/she doesn't like starting this contact? There is only one solution for me. I can start contact only if I have already got very detailed information about person so this makes illusion that he is already not a stranger. Most of men send short message, expecting that I will ask many questions trying to find out his personality. The truth is that I will not do it. Yes, you can call me bad for that, but I will reply only to well written detailed letter from someone who will not make me to ask many questions but will write proper letter with basic information by himself. Man's appearance means nothing for me, but what he says and what is more important, what he does - that's important.
That were negative moments. Obviously, there are much more of them but I'll let you discover size of all iceberg by yourself. Thanks for reading.
P.S. Please, be patient and don't expect fast replies, sometimes it is not easy to do due to many reasons. That one who puts efforts in his first letter will get reply faster.
P.S.S. Chat doesn't work correctly and doesn't show messages and requests there. Text only in letters section.
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2023.06.10 17:05 Green_madam 34 [F4M] Ukraine/Anywhere for husband

This text is only for single man without kids, who searchs for wife. You can be Christian (practicing or not) or atheist.
Important, CHAT DOESN'T WORK CORRECTLY. I can't see and reply to chat requests, can't fix it. Text to letter section. How to do that? Open my profile > More options > Send message. Not chat but message.
I'm a single female from Ukraine (can meet with you in another country, more safe for you). I search for a single childless man older than 35 (older- better) for a serious relationship, first without physical aspects. Your age and appearance are not important. I wish you are self-employed, your own master and boss or digital nomad who is not bended strongly with certain place of living or office shedual but that is not a strict demand.
Sometimes men expect physical aspects very fast and leave fast if not get it soon. In my opinion, this means the first interest was not in the relationship itself but in these aspects. That's why I want to find a relationship first without it. So I can be sure that a man stays near me because he really likes me, not for physical satisfaction itself. That means not only one sphere of relationship. People divide into 2 groups. Those who give more than take and opposite. Wishing to gain satisfaction fast leads to frustration and disappointment.
I have got few marriage offers in the past, but felt that they were not serious because the men were too young, not well settled and made these offers trying to gain something. Being not a young girl, I still wait for a right person—a man who will be happy staying with me and will do everything for me by his own wish. Sounds too vanilla? Yes, I am a dreamer.
If things work, I can relocate to you or to invite you to live in Ukraine after the war ends. If you are able to set up app called telegram for chat and meet in real life before autumn, then please text me. I prefer well written letter that was sent in inbox letters, not in chat requests.
Now more detaily about me. Never been married, no kids (will not have in the nearest time and probably a childfree), no pets . Was raised in small village at farmer's house (the nature was great but didn't like the hard working lifestyle) and prefer city life. I don't smoke, don't drink alcohol . You will not have to suffer dealing with numerous people around me because I don't have friends (people disappear when interests and lifestyles become different) and my family is very small. I don't visit bars, clubs or parties and not addicted to social networks. As an introvert, I can't open to someone fast because have been cheated by those whom trusted. Life teaches, only real actions show the true person's intentions, not just his words.
About two negative moments. The first is my passivity. I was raised in a culture where it was considered vulgar if a woman is too active in the path of creating a relationship. Yes, it is obvious that active women will get success sooner than passive one but I can't change myself and prefer the one who will take initiative and will be just classic old-fashioned gentleman.
The second negative moment is that being introverted, I totally dislike situation when I have to contact with unknown people, especially with men, especially in field of relationship. That sounds not logical because how can someone know anyone if he/she doesn't like starting this contact? There is only one solution for me. I can start contact only if I have already got very detailed information about person so this makes illusion that he is already not a stranger. Most of men send short message, expecting that I will ask many questions trying to find out his personality. The truth is that I will not do it. Yes, you can call me bad for that, but I will reply only to well written detailed letter from someone who will not make me to ask many questions but will write proper letter with basic information by himself. Man's appearance means nothing for me, but what he says and what is more important, what he does - that's important.
That were negative moments. Obviously, there are much more of them but I'll let you discover size of all iceberg by yourself. Thanks for reading.
P.S. Please, be patient and don't expect fast replies, sometimes it is not easy to do due to many reasons. That one who puts efforts in his first letter will get reply faster.
P.S.S. Chat doesn't work correctly and doesn't show messages and requests there. Text only in letters section.
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2023.06.10 17:04 sammyluvsya Local tattoo shops?

I’m getting married on the 28th and my sister is flying up here the day before and is wanting us to each get a tattoo with our last name before my changes forever.
Does anyone know of any good tattoo shops in Albany or East Greenbush that would take appointments scheduled only 2 weeks in advance?
TIA!
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2023.06.10 17:04 Matchacide 35 [M4F] East Coast/Online - Settling blocks the power of choice.

I’m not fond of making these posts, yet here I am again.
Part of me still believes that I’ll put one of these up, and the right person will find it. Either by absent mindedly scrolling a little too long through “New”, doing random keyword searches, or from a Reddit app notification that’s a couple of days delayed. Yet with each post I’m becoming a bit more disillusioned because I keep running into similar interactions with people that have different usernames.
“I saw your post and I just wanted to say hi!” … and then proceeds to say nothing else.
“Hi!”, “Hello!” or “Hey!” … with nothing else to follow and no post history.
A random 3am message from someone on the other side of the world.
Don’t get me wrong, responses are responses, but I’d rather get 1 good response than receive 10 mediocre ones. You know? I still think that a good response is coming; I still think that the person I’m looking for is still looking for me.
Here’s hoping that this post does the trick.
I’m a 35-year-old black man. I have never been married, I have no children, and have no desire for games (the mental ones, that is). What I do have is a good sense of humor, ambition, education, and a desire to share my life with someone special. I never promise perfection, but I can promise effort. I am intentional about my words and actions, and I want someone that feels the same. My goal is to be your peace, not your burden.
I admire self-assuredness and passion. Our lifepaths don’t need to be the same, but I expect you to be passionate about something – to have a goal to achieve something. If you don’t have that then I’m 99.9999991% sure that we’ll be better as friends than romantic partners. Honesty and transparency are crucial and a bare minimum expectation. Self-control and empathy are a part of this as well. If you’re incapable of providing or exhibiting anything that I’ve listed above? You’ll probably do us both a favor by closing this post out now. I wish you the best.
I can’t possibly list everything about myself and what I’m looking for, but I think this is enough for now. Usually people struggle to find things to talk about or tell me about themselves, so I’ll provide a cheat sheet:
• How old are you?
• Where do you live?
• What in this post resonated with you?
• What do you like to do in your spare time?
• Do you speak any language other than English?
• What was the last book you read?
• What were the last 5 songs that you listened to?
….and that should be good to get the ball rolling. Possibly.
Go ahead and shoot me your best response, and let’s make each other’s world a little less lonely.
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2023.06.10 17:04 Evening-Map-2266 Want to moan

Any thing you have a problem with no matter what it is just put it out there on here so we can all put our opinions across. Example with the 100 sexes we have to not upset now did you know George the third made 2 laws which have been rescinded in the uk the first you can legally marry who or what you want which he did so he could legally marry a rose Bush and the second was if you married a woman wearing makeup if you didn't like her with out makeup on then the marriage was legally annulled by false representation because of how different people look with make up on. So in the 1800s he took into account gay marriage and trans gender in those laws which amazingly actually still exist in England. But anything you have a problem with you can rant and rave here all you want no matter what it is just remember to be civil.
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2023.06.10 17:02 byta_2 23 [F4M] Be my saturday subby!!

TLDR: Good girls, sexy bra/panties, call me momma, I also love married & curious & VERIFY!! 🥵
I know 23 seems young, but I have what turns me on the most, & want to be able to share that with a good little subby!
If you are feeling lonely and porn just isn’t cutting it, and you need some of that… spark. I have a huge fantasy of being your top!
Kinks: I’m a domme/top, with whatever comfortability of my partner. I love teaching curious or “mostly straight” women. Please call me, “Momma.” I also LOVE cute bras/panties, they brighter the color the better. I also love playing with them… in ways that you will have to find out. Maybe a little seduction and light CNC.
Limits: Voluntary bodily fluids. I am not a toilet. Squirting is ok & often encouraged. Anything past that including illegal.
Hope to hear from you! If you read this far, tell me the one bad dragon dildo you want me to strap on with you, bonus points if it’s my fave 🥵😏
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2023.06.10 17:02 Fickle-Park-850 How to Educate Partner

My BPSO (45M), married 12 years, hates conflict, which might seem paradoxical when combined with bipolar... so when he's not triggered in childish anger because he just wants happy cognitive dissonance all the time, (unless he is upset about something and then we all have to be upset with him) he just agrees as a defense. It's made it impossible to know what he truly agrees with. It shuts down our discussions, stops progress, and is making me feel like panicked and trapped like when I grew up... and the patient and understanding partner I've been is chipping away rapidly now, because I recently came to understand how serious this is - and he is far from ready to grasp it.
He senses a change in me, and cut back on coffee and unsubbed from his doom news channels on YouTube, (I didnt mandate this at all, I said its bad for bipolar and as a show of loyalty I guess,, he just did it) which is shocking, and, I AM proud of him, but I think he is trying to appease something he fears inside me... I don't think he truly believes what I'm learning about bipolar. He says he's ready to do what it takes but he still argues and I see in his eyes he hates this, instead of believing its truly necessary. He won't go get a diagnosis, (I actually thought he had one long ago, but I guess he was on his way to it and didn't pursue therapy that far in his 20's.)
I thought, he's neurodivergent, he's traumatized emotionally, he had bad mentors at a critical age.. but in the latter half of our marriage I saw patterns, and began to worry this was mainly built into his brain chemistry.
He has gotten worse since 2021 - new levels and frequency of rage. I wasn't there to help him manage his mood a couple months ago - he depends on me a lot for that - and he had his first public outburst.. blacked out, shoued in a friend's face.. stayed in a delusion for ten hours... it was likely brought on by beer, but I know it was an episode, not the alcohol talking and walking around as him. He didn't have nearly enough to make him delusional from alcohol alone. He woke up in that state the next day too. Then like a switch, he came back, was terrified, got texts telling him what he did and was so embarrassed and ashamed. For the first time I felt seen. He's had cognitive dissonance about how he acts with his family. Plausible deniability because his memory is not clear during episodes.
He keeps saying, "this has never happened" and I keep saying, "oh so, the hundreds of times you do this to us, don't count?" He'll say, "but I would never do this in public" and I'm just... really?? There's a list of reactions I have that I need to repress because he's not at a level to grasp things or cope.
He's just so deep in denial. I'm moved by some recent gestures, I am, but since his last episode, I've educated myself about BP, that it's likely what we're dealing with - we need testing and confirmation. If he has this its progressive - as I have certainly observed. He was very different 12 years ago. I think he "rapid cycles" a lot now. Welcome clarification on that.
He isn't by default the type of person who would commit to a permanent life overhaul for the sake of his mental health. Loves his dopamine boosting routines. He can get motivated eventually.
The status quo is, he agrees to get professional help, since before I understood the seriousness of bipolar, yet he's still putting off searching for a good therapist/doc. I'm done trying to call them, have them tell me he needs to contact them himself, and then him never taking the step. He needs to take charge of this, for his own self esteem too.
I doubt my own sanity because, he's soft arguing, basically saying "okay, I promise, yes, this is a big deal, and I do take it seriously," but he means just.. flat "no." Because he never does it, and changes his mind on things he agrees with, and questions everything.
Now he says my sources seem sketchy... he doesn't think if he has bipolar any of this is an emergency, or dangerous...
I've been scared of his intense moods, shouting, ranting and obsessing. The kids are too. He cries about this, then turns around and acts like it's not there.
So sorry this was ranty. I tried to give history for relevance, but in a nutshell:
What official sources and info can I offer to educate him into grasping the seriousess of things? He can be scared to health, I know him. He's just got his head deep in the sand and is clinging to ignorance like a safety blanket.
Does anyone have good statistical data on where he's headed untreated? He doesn't believe this is progressive. He thinks he can mind over matter, just willpower away all this. Like it's a character thing or a personality disorder rather than a mental illness that requires all the good habits plus medical intervention. He says, "well I'll just get pills then." I try to explain it's NOT that simple but he is set on this being easy and thinks I'm caught up in some conspiracy, I guess. Not paranoia, just me being naiive, even though that's not in my reputation.
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2023.06.10 17:01 valhalarus My girlfriend lied about her age and I seriously don't know what to do

A few days ago, my girlfriend (who i've been dating for almost eight months) came out and told me that she's actually turning 16 instead of 17. I am 17, turning 18 and I don't know how to feel about this. For context, me and my friends knew this girl for about three years now (When i was 15 and she was supposedly 14), the entire time we believed she was just a year younger than me. We got together, started dating, started spending every day together. I don't know what exactly it was about our ages that made me so happy, was it that I believed it would be more socially acceptable??? was it a boundary I set up myself??? I still can't pinpoint why exactly 17-18 sounded so perfect.
As a 17 yr old man, I look at other 15 yr olds as literal children even if the age difference might not exactly be the biggest in the world, it was still something i had engrained in my head. Finding out she was actually 15 the entire time changed how I looked at a lot of the memories, I feel grossed out with myself, It's genuinely all that i've been thinking of since she said it. Every other thought is me relating something or the other with how we actually have a two year age gap, that she's gonna be 16 while i'll be 18.
I've been trying to divert my mind from all of it, and for a while, it does work. I get distracted enough to remember that something as insignificant as a two year age-gap isn't what i want ruining a relationship which i've always viewed as perfect. But then at random intervals, I get really depressed and want to do nothing but sleep thinking about it. I could be okay one second, laughing with her and then immediately feel guilty as hell talking to one of our mutual friends, like i'm doing something wrong and weird.
Don't get me wrong, I still love her the most. I genuinely do think I won't be able to live without her, my entire fucking future's based around her. I started working and studying hard for her, I want to give her everything but all I can think of is how unfair it is that something like this happened to me. I honestly wish I never knew, or that she was actually the age she lied about, or that she told me when we were in our late 50s when none of this would matter. I am scared of losing feelings for her, i'm scared of eventually losing her. I wish I could turn time back and just erase these past few days, I really do. I don't want to end this, she's the girl I want to marry but I don't know why exactly just two years is throwing me off. Is 16 and 18 weird despite the fact that we've known each other since our early teenage years??? Is me choosing to stay with her wrong???
Well reddit, before I go into another depression episode, what exactly do I do?
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2023.06.10 17:01 TinyPandaPause AITA for changing my mind and not choosing my best friend as a godmother?

Rachel and I work together in a neighbouring city. Last year around this time I found out I was pregnant. It was unplanned. Prior to this I was renting a place, which was pretty close to this friend's apartment. We were besties. But everything came to a haul. I got married, moved to my natal town and honestly, now, with the baby here, I'm the happiest I've been in a long time.
When I found out I had this great plan of having her as my child's godmother alongside Mary, an older friend of my husband.
Time passed and I slowly started reconsidering it because:
  1. I went a few times back my work town and was excited to see her. She was 90% flaky and didn't show up (she drives I don't)
  2. DH and I went to a our (R and I) friend's wedding and needed a place to stay. We had to go to a hotel because she wasn't that comfortable with it. Sidenote: She often used to say that she would be there for me day and night because we're besties.
  3. When we came back from the wedding, we carpooled with another coworker. She wanted to drive all of us home. R said to drop us all at her place because she'll take us to our hotel. Once there, R reconsidered because she drank a little and we had to wait half an hour in the cold for an uber.
  4. She didn't visit by herself once. Only when our common friend (the one thay got married) drove. Her excuse: gas is expensive.
  5. She called when I was around the end of my 3rd trim asking me what she needs to do/buy for the baby and to keep in mind that she's a bit low on money, but she'll do her best. Sidenote: she brags that she makes a very good amount of cash through some independent work. I can confirm since before the pregnancy I used to do similarly.
Mary, however, bought almost everything in the nursery as a surprise gift. Then, I also found out that M asked us to make her daughter the "official" godmother because they would be closer in age (M is around 50, her D 20). So, I decided to make M and her daughter the only godmothers. 3 is too many in our religion.
Now, R's flakiness and other stuff wouldn't bother me. Despite everything, I love talking to her, we share so much and we are nonstop laughing when together. But I don't want someone unreliable for my kid.
Because I want R to be a part of my family, I asked her if she'd like to be the midwife instead. She said no and that it feels like a demotion.
Granted, I never clearly presented everything that bothered me about what she did to make me change my mind. Mostly because I'm scared of conflict so I do my best to avoid instigating one. Also because I don't want to lose her as a friend.
Now, R said she felt humiliated about the whole thing. Especially at work, where she has to tell different lies to other work friends to which she already bragged that she will be the godmother. I tried to message her and explain the above reasons and so forth, but the other friend called me before sending it and told me to stop and just say that I'll do better if I want to keep this frienship.
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2023.06.10 17:00 unbridledenthusiasm2 2nd career - MD/DO or PA?

I realize this is the pre-PA sub, but looking for some advice.
I'm a 28F, I've been a clinical dietitian (RD) for 5 years. I work in the ICU and absolutely love the environment (yes, I realize I do the 'fun' stuff so it's not the same as what nurses/MDs/etc do, but I work close with them and see what they all do. I worked all throughout covid and that didn't scare me away at all). I've been unsatisfied with my work as an RD for about 3.5 years now. I love the patient aspect and the science behind it, but my scope is pretty limited. I never even considered medicine in high school - I had no family in the field and honestly, a really bad case of imposter syndrome, so I didn't even think about it. Heck, I thought I'd be working in an outpatient clinic as an RD, but I fell in love with inpatient life. I have almost all of the prerequisites done with the exception of physics and organic chemistry II. I graduated undergrad in 3 years with my BS, 3.79 GPA, and graduated with my MS with a 4.0. I was the president of the nutrition honors society in undergrad, plus a few other clubs, volunteer work, etc. In addition to my full time job, I teach as an adjunct professor at the graduate level in nutrition. I've also been published a few times with research in grad school and at my current job. I've mostly worked inpatient; I have some experience in the home infusion world as well.
I am drawn to either PA or MD/DO and need help deciding or some perspectives. So far I have:
Pros of MD/DO:
-Love the autonomy; being the 'leader of the pack' and being an expert in a certain area
-Love the patient interaction/responsibilities
-Love being able to specialize; currently drawn to either emergency medicine, critical care (yes I realize there is a fellowship required), or surgery of some sort
-The time/dedication doesn't scare me as the time will pass anyways....but the hours/salary/lack thereof for a few years does. However, the realization of starting med school at probably 30, graduating at 34, not being an attending until at least 38....is a bit of a doozy.
Cons of MD/DO:
-As above, the hours/salary/lack of salary for a few years is a drawback. My salary as an RD isn't lucrative in the slightest; I don't have the cushiest amount of savings and don't have any financial support from family. I fortunately don't have any student loans (worked through school/scholarships) but realize that a) I won't be able to work outside of school this time around and b) scholarships are pretty hard to come by, by my understanding. Also, not sure how to pay for living expenses/etc.
-I am single; would love nothing more than to be married with children. If I am so blessed with that, the time spent at work does scare me a bit.
-I do have a lot of interests, so actually choosing a specialty might be difficult.
-Have to study for the MCAT and likely have to take a few more prerequisites
-I'm just a tad burned out; my current field is quite draining, I did both degrees back-to-back while working, worked all through covid...
-Unsure if I'd even be competitive? No family in medicine, no mission trips, no companies founded or necessarily profound accomplishments in comparison to what other pre-med's seem to have
Pros of PA:-Only 2 years, can start practicing sooner
-Have most of the prereqs for most schools; have the GRE from my previous degree
-Can change specialties; could work in surgery, critical care, and EM
-Love the interdisciplinary interaction and teamwork. I'm fine with not being 'the boss'
Cons of PA:
-Limited scope of practice compared to MD/DO, although much more than what I do now
-Burnout as above
-Financial concerns still present, but less than MD/DO
Would love some thoughts! Thanks in advance :)
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2023.06.10 16:59 Sneaki7 I (22M) am stuck between choosing my gf (22F) and another career

Hey, I need some help from you guys. I am in a 2 year relationship with my girlfriend. We met on uni and she is still doing her studies to become doctor, while I took a bachelors in IT and is now working full time. The problem is that I am certain this career is not for me. I only finished my bachelors because I had this mindset that dropping out would not do me any good and that I should get the degree to start building a life, but I am seriously miserable. Also on top of this, my girlfriend and her parents has a criteria which is that I NEED to have a masters degree to marry her. I want to tell you that I have not put any effort into figuring my life when I was a teenager. I choose the education only because I was "qualified", not because I really wanted it. And now that I am finally working, I feel like this is not for me. I have already start putting more effort into doing things I really want to do. My problem when I was a younger was that I played videogames all day, mostly because of anxiety and family issues. I am going to therapy for this. I want to try for the army in my country. I am way more of a practical guy and I like actively pushing my body. I hate sitting in an office all day long. I want something more meaningful to me, and being a bit older and mature, I realize that really want to be in the army. Or maybe become a policeman or a firefighter. BUT this implies risking my finance and stability which is something I have barely started working on. I need a change. I cant do office work for the rest of my life, but changing this will end a relationship with a person I love very much and was part of something that made me more mature. Any advice guys? TLDR: Am stuck between choosing master to be with gf, or a new career being more meaningful for me.
Apologies for any broken english
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2023.06.10 16:59 LizBert712 Married Bisexuals: A Mild Rant

I have always wondered why nobody considers that married bisexuals who didn’t date people of their own gender aren’t wimpy or unsure or fetishizing or whatever — they maybe faced challenges others didn’t.
-A lot of folks who marry young come from traditional/religious families where the heteronormative pressure is strongest. They have less opportunity to explore/figure things out before marriage.
-People who struggle with weight sometimes have a lot of trouble dating, even in diversity-accepting groups, bc they have been told they’re gross for most of their lives.
-Shy or super introverted people are less likely to explore dating a lot of people in general.
-Nerodiverse people have a lot on their plate in the dating world already — all those silent signals and invisible rules. They might have trouble exploring bisexuality in a heteronormative world on top of that.
-People in small communities might not have that many same-sex people around who are looking to date/hook up.
Etc.
My point is, bisexuality can be confusing. And some people are given fewer opportunities to explore. I wish all the folks who sneer at bisexuals with little same-sex experience married to opposite gender folks (someone on here, being self-deprecating, called us a cliché the other day, so there seem to be a number of us) would think of this stuff. It bugs me that people instantly jump to the idea that we’re all faking or wimpy or whatever it is they think we’re doing.
Rant over. Thank you for listening.
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2023.06.10 16:58 P-Taters Gastrointestinal Problems

I am experiencing gastrointestinal issues after eating almost anything. My diet is pretty much restricted to eggs and turkey bacon at this point. If I eat anything else, I get abdominal discomfort and have to spend a lot of time in the restroom. I have tried adding probiotics to my diet, but it has not helped.
This is a year round issue, but it gets significantly worse during allergy season.
Foods like raw vegetables and fruits cause the most intense discomfort. A lot of these foods also make me wheeze and make my neck/chest turn red. It's almost daily that a new food sets off this reaction.
I noticed this starting to happen around the age of 24. It was pretty negligible at that time, though. Now it's been 8 years and it's only gotten worse.
Along with these issues, I am also having significantly worse respiratory health. I have to wear a half mask respirator any time I am outside the house.
All of this is taking a toll on my mental health. I just got married 3 months ago to the most amazing person on the planet. I should be the happiest I have been in my life. I try to focus on that, but the constant discomfort is getting to me.
Has anyone with these symptoms gotten treatment? Did it get better? What was the treatment that made it better?
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2023.06.10 16:56 bgjr1999 I just like sex!!

I (47M) have always enjoyed the idea of sex and sex itself. As a child I fantasized about Wonder Woman (Linda Carter). I would even find myself aroused as as a 6 or 7 year old while watching the show. As an early teen or just prior and even through high school, the neighbors grandson would come over or I would.go over there and we always would found our selves experimenting on each other sexually. We were never in love with each other but just liked to cum, kissing wasn't an option. All during this time he and I always had girlfriends who we were sexual with. I think my first time having sex with a female was in the 8th grade (in the church bathroom no doubt). In college, I met the love of my life and we have now been married 23 years. She is awesome. Both being raised in the church, neither of us really explored the fringes of sexuality and stayed in the "normal" world. I would occasionally watch porn and masturbate, scared of her response. I am not real sure if she did the same but I do know on a few occasions we would wake up in the middle of the night and would have sex while two females were having sex on TV and then go back to sleep with little conversation afterward. The surprise of my life happened several years ago when she had an affair with another woman. It about tore us apart but we have worked through it. Surprisingly, all three of us have. Sadly, what they experienced at that time, I have not been able to get any action from it. However, we both talk about it, fantasize about it and then have amazing sex. She longs for both relationships to work but it really isn't practical since she is also married and he has no clue. Since the affair, my wife and I have become very open to each other and we both want to bring in another couple or single person. I think we are both too chicken to do it. I want to have sex with another woman or man and she would be open to the same thing. We both love sex and are turned on by sex of all kinds. We consider ourselves straight but have extremely high desires to have sex with different genders. Are we truly bi? Or are we just straight people that want to have sex with folks that we can also have a sexually comfortable relationship with? What are we? Are we weird?
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